My Friends' Journies Through Poetry



My Longing Soul

Poetry by Jeanette 474 on December 7, 2012
Shared with permission of Jeanette 474.

Sexual Abuse Molestation PTSD Post-traumatic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Syndrome Incest Childhood Recovery Dissociation Therapy Poetry Poems Self-help Healing Overcoming Mental Abuse Physical Abuse My soul is longing
And I know not why
All I can do
Is sit here and cry
The longing is deep
It is felt at the core
What is this pain?
I need to know more
Let me see it,
Give it a name
Every day I feel it
Again and again
I want to scream it out
To make it go away
I want to run and hide
And keep it at bay
But is is still here
This longing I feel
Sleep is my friend
A few hours I steal
To not feel this ache
This pain in my heart
Wish I had words
Of which to impart
To help me sometimes
When I don’t know what to do
This ache inside
Makes me sad and so blue
Is it love for the child?
I hold deep inside?
My wounds need to heal
And I must decide
I look for that love
Does it fill my soul?
Cause I know that the ache
Is a deep dark black hole
The ache will subside
When I take that first step
To loving myself
The tears I have wept
Looking for love
In others I’ll see
That the only true love
Will be found inside of me.