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You Thought You Broke My Spirit

Poetry by Jeanette 474 on December 7, 2012
Shared with permission of Jeanette 474.

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You thought you broke my spirit
The hell you put me thru
I was just a little girl
So lonely and so blue


All I needed was a daddy
Someone safe to hold
All I see is your big hands
Your eyes they were so cold


You set me up you bastard
My body was YOURS not mine
The thought of you still lingers now
How could I be so blind


To take the shame all these years
Like a monkey on my back
Years of pain and anguish
Self esteem is what I lack


I was just a innocent child
The tender age of four
Who needed you to love me
I was literally your whore


My body was my outlet
Any man would do I said
He could use me for his lust
But it was love I wanted instead


Four years old, so innocent
How could I be at fault
For 40 years I lived your lies
My mind you did assault


Doubt and fear anger and rage
Just to name a few
All these years of agony
You have put me thru


You’re dead to this world
But I am not
Wholeness is my goal
You might have taken my body
But you did not take my soul